Cinta Dalam Lagu (Siri II)
dont hope for something that u r not sure. I'm trying hard to forget him and able to do it when i'm with tutt.. Tutt love is something yg special... ermm tapi...
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Knape org suke nak judge org len? Sape layak bersame sape? Adekah kerana Tuuut tu social? menjadikan die berbeda dr sy? nape org len yg nak tolong kesahkan? Sy x penah kesah pun sume tu. Bg sy, sy nampak keihklasan die memberi kasih syg. ketulusan die meluahkan cintanya. adekah mereka yg bersongkok, ke usrah, RM itu baek orangnye? tak sume...
Buat pengetahuan sume, sy ade dapat surat layang... org yg hantar tu sy kenal...sekumpulan manusia yg mungkin merasekan diri mereka sempurna dan memandang hina pade manusia laen...saye simpan surat tu...kerana kandungannya terlalu mengguris perasaan..yang pastinye, membuatkan Tuutt, meninggalkan saye....Dierang kate, perempuan yg baek mcam sy (Saye ni x bek pun sbenanye), x patut dpt org mcm tuut...(Tutt tu bek je..reti hormat org..x macam org yg bg surat tu)..situation mase tu terlalu complicated. Asalkan sy duduk, mkn bersame tutt, sekumpulan manusia itu pasti memandang serong... entahlaa...
....Wahai manusia2 itu, dengar ini..
"Sesungguhnye Tutt amat menghormati sy, die lansung tak pernah menyentuh/tersentuh saye, walopun korang sume kate die x baek.... anehkan manusia ni... mengate org sbenanye mereka tu yg lebih"
___________________________Akhir bab cinta Tuuut__________________
Ialah...yang sudah biarkanla ia berlalu. Mungkin mmg tlh tersurat sejak di Loh Mahfuz yg Tutt bukanla jodoh sy....
" Ifa, tuut minta maaf, tutt nak mengundur diri..."
"Tapi kenape? ...ape salah ifa?"
"..."
Talian diputuskan begitu saje..sy tergamam..Tanpa sy sedar, air mate ni berderai laju...
"kenapa? kenapa terlalu mudah dia mengaku kalah?kenapeee?"
Sampai hari sy ini tak mengerti kenape, tapi sy pasti...die lakukan sume tu tok kebaikan saye...
Jadi sy mengorak langkah tok teruskan idop...Cinta pergi dan cinta dtg...cinta pasti akan menjengah lagi...
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Allah mengatur kehidupan manusia ni indah sekali. Di kala hubungan sy n tutt berakhir, bukan sy saje yg berduka... tanpe di duga, Amad juge mengalami naseb yg same, tapi die lebih terluke...
Bercerite ttg Amad, gadis yg telah 8 tahun di cintainye, menduakannye...Tak perlula sy cerite lebih lanjut. Itu kesah mereka, sy tak nak taula...x best pun..
Lame sudah sy x berhubung dgn Amad. rase kekok tok bertemu or berbicara...Tapi ade sesuatu yg membuatkan sy terpanggil tok berbicara dgn Amad.
"Dens, nape Amad tu? Tgok muke die iffa dh tu die tgh ade probs.."
"Ermm, iffa gla jumpe die, tolong die. Awek die wat hal"
"ooo..nape?"
"Erm, besela iffa..dok jauh2, bercinta..."
"Nntla iffa jumpe die, thanks Dens."
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Sebenarnye lame dah sy x contact Amad...Patah hatila katekan...tapi sbb sy x bule tgok die bersedih (sbb rs syg tu masih ade), jd sy kol die...tp gune public phone...sbb tanak die tau no phone sy yg baru...
"Hello, assalamualaikum"
"wslm.."
"Amad, sowila sy kol, walopun sy dh janji x kan kol Amad lg."
"errr.."
"Kenalkan suara ni."
"Amad igtkan iffa xkan bercakap dgn Amad lg."
"erm...iffa tgok Amad sedih je..wanna share wif me?"
"...."
Sy dgr nada suara Amad berubah, seakan didlm sedu-sedan. Die memulakan bicara dukanye..Kesian Amad, punyela baek tapi sanggup awek die buat camtu...
Biarlah...Allah pasti akan memberi reward pd perempuan itu.
Since that point onward, sy mule rapat balek dgn Amad...sy bgla balek no baru sy kat die..hehe. Kawan2, joint MPP...g berjual2 barang...macam2la buat dgn Amad ni...
Akhirnye..tanggal 051004...Amad meluahkan rase cinta yg die pendam sejak sekian lameenye...Di pendekkan cerita..Kami bercinta..sehingga kini dan alhamdulillah..36 hari lagi kami akan diijabkabulkan... Mungkin itula percaaturan idop yang Allah janjikan buat kami... Kedukaan tidak perlu diperpanjangkan...
Lame sudah sy x berhubung dgn Amad. rase kekok tok bertemu or berbicara...Tapi ade sesuatu yg membuatkan sy terpanggil tok berbicara dgn Amad.
"Dens, nape Amad tu? Tgok muke die iffa dh tu die tgh ade probs.."
"Ermm, iffa gla jumpe die, tolong die. Awek die wat hal"
"ooo..nape?"
"Erm, besela iffa..dok jauh2, bercinta..."
"Nntla iffa jumpe die, thanks Dens."
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Sebenarnye lame dah sy x contact Amad...Patah hatila katekan...tapi sbb sy x bule tgok die bersedih (sbb rs syg tu masih ade), jd sy kol die...tp gune public phone...sbb tanak die tau no phone sy yg baru...
"Hello, assalamualaikum"
"wslm.."
"Amad, sowila sy kol, walopun sy dh janji x kan kol Amad lg."
"errr.."
"Kenalkan suara ni."
"Amad igtkan iffa xkan bercakap dgn Amad lg."
"erm...iffa tgok Amad sedih je..wanna share wif me?"
"...."
Sy dgr nada suara Amad berubah, seakan didlm sedu-sedan. Die memulakan bicara dukanye..Kesian Amad, punyela baek tapi sanggup awek die buat camtu...
Biarlah...Allah pasti akan memberi reward pd perempuan itu.
Since that point onward, sy mule rapat balek dgn Amad...sy bgla balek no baru sy kat die..hehe. Kawan2, joint MPP...g berjual2 barang...macam2la buat dgn Amad ni...
Akhirnye..tanggal 051004...Amad meluahkan rase cinta yg die pendam sejak sekian lameenye...Di pendekkan cerita..Kami bercinta..sehingga kini dan alhamdulillah..36 hari lagi kami akan diijabkabulkan... Mungkin itula percaaturan idop yang Allah janjikan buat kami... Kedukaan tidak perlu diperpanjangkan...
"Ya Allah, hamba-Mu bermohon agar segala urusan bagi majlis perkahwinan kami akan berjalan dgn lancar. Lindungi kami dr malapetaka, dan berkatila kami di dunia dan akhirat....amiiiiin ya Rabbal 'alamiiin"
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Cinta dalam Lagu...
PUTERI CINTA HATI
Saat pertama sy dengar lagu ni, mase dpt engagement video sy. Kate kazen, background music tu x launch lg, still dlm promo. Wow..padanla x penah dgr pun. Tapi kesinambungan lirik, irama music dan video tu, sgt menyentuh jiwa sy ni. terus jatuh hati dgn lagu ni...
Harini, sy rs sgt tertekan, depress...sy tak tau dah nakk describe saket sy ni pade HR and SKO MC ni. bukan sume penyakit mudah untuk diexplain. Kalo sy ni patah kaki ke, kanser ke, ia sesuatu yg dpt dilihat, boleh dipastikan dgn test2 dr doctor... Masalah sy ..saket sy ni, within my own system, how should I tell them? Buntu... Maybe kalo anak2 dierang kne saket macam sy ni baru dierang sedar kot how urgent n how important for me to be close with my family and doctor. Untuk yg x de anak, of course dierang x paham... tapi x bek doakan org caamtukan..Astaghfirullahal'azim.
Balek opis, membersihkan diri n perot mule rase lapa..Asalnye dah SMS abg syanad nak ajak dinner, tp rasenye die bz..so pandai2la nak idop. Susahkan, kawan x sume yg paham kite, x sume yg sanggup sacrifice macam family sendri. Mungkin kalo kite, kite anggap kawan mcam adek bradek sendri, sanggup ssh payah tok kawan kite tu..kite risaukan kesihatan die, kite x le tgok kawan kite sedih..tapi x semestinye kawan yg kite ade skang ni akan same macam kite.. Itu mmg sudah lumrah berkawan... x kesahla.. I'm tired of thinking about it.
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so, lepak2 lepas maghrib, on PC..sbenanye nak cari Poco-poco yg new version yg kumpulan Butterfly nyanyi tu..huhu, pastu tetibe teringat plak lagu yg wat video engagement tu.. so apelagi.. me"Utube" la..hehhe.. Finally i got it!! 1st tgok video clip lagu ni..so touchy..
Now, i knew y my cousin put this song as background video tu. it is my life story. wwaaa.. mengalir air mate. Tak perlu dah sy nak pikir pasal kawan.. sbb, setahu sy, sy ade sorang kawan sejati. sy kenal die since 1st sem sy kat UTP. Kuasa Allah, die di takdirkan lewat register ke UTP sbb ade program dgn secondary skool die. so he was in my Foundation English Class wif me.
Al maklumla, kelas english byk kne wat presentation. kne becakap depan kelas... bg speech..macam2 lagila.. so one night ni, mase nak tunggu class penoh (budget dtg awal ni), kebetulan sy, rumet sy and few guys ade dlm kelas tu. Kawan sy tu pun ade dalam kelas tu, ntah napela sy ni macam ade drive nak bukak mulut...maybe sbb tgok kawan sy tu innocent kot (budget muke budak bek)..
" Awak, firdhauskan?"
" ...erm.."
"Awak skolah mane dulu eik?"
"Maktab tentera"
"ooo..RMC"
hehe..tetibe rase diri ni cam nakal... the conversation just ended there... sy pun x tau nape. maybe sbb mase tu lecturer tu dah sampai. Class punn berjalan as usual but.... something waiting for me at end of the class..
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aik...apela kawan sy tu wat dok kat tangge luar kelas ni, kelas dah abes, tapi x reti2 nak balek... apela yg ditunggunye... yg x tahan tu, mamat sorang lagi yg salu teman die tu. Tengok org cam tak puas ati je, macam nak cari gado (tp sbenanye mmg muke die camtu)..
Since hari sy mule tego kawan sy tu... sy notice yg setiap kali abes kelas, die akan dok kat tangge tu tunggu sy kluar kelas, lepas sy kuar kelas, die tunggu kat motor die plak, tunggu sy jalan lepas parking area..pastu barula die nak gerak balek. Erm, something wrong sy rase dgn kawan sy ni (tapi mase ni belom jadi kawan lagila)... untok memudahkan penceritaan..kite namekan kawan sy ni "Amad".
jadi, kehidupan as 1st year student, berlalu spt biasa. Sy ni mcam dpt kekuatan tok dtg kelas english tu. nak bg speech or bercakap kat depan pun rase tenang sbb sy dpt rskan sokongan dr Amad ni. pandangan mate die, senyuman die yg manis tu (mulut die mmg kiut rr, siyes rase nak amek gunting , gunting..hahha) beri sy kekuatan, ketenangan..redup mate, fiuuuuh..cair.. I'm melting~~~ tapi yg peliknye tapi teramatla benar, sy x penah becakap dgn Amad ni semenjak last conversation tu, hanye mate bertemu mate lantas senyum menguntum dan badan terus mengorak langkah berlalu pergi.
test..test..test...exam..exam lagi...brape byk paper final pun x surela sem tu. 1st sem mmg ilang arah tujuan belaje. x le nak balance life lagi. Cuak kot sbb ramai budak2 genious...sy ni bese2 je.. Down~~ abes exam, balek umah.. Chatting!! mirc? sound familiar? sbenanye ade org ajak join, kalo x silap amar, hopefully btolla name mamat ni. so joinla chatting. bersembunyi di nickname ape eik.. "oshienz" or "casper" x igtla, lost memory dah..hehhe..
___________________mirc????mirc???mirc??________________________________
"xxxx(name dirahsiakan), nak tanye sket, "beck7 ni sape eik?"
"eih die dak batch kite... XXXX(name dirahsiakan)"
"ooo budak yg same kelas foundation dgn sy"
Makenye, cuti sem tu menjadi permulaan sy dan Amad menjadi rakan siber... chitchat menjadi nadi kami berhubung. at our last , before end chatting malam tu:
" Awak tau ke sape sy?"
" Erm, sy kenal awk ke?"
" rasenye kenal kot"
"owh, yeke?"
" Awak XXXX(name dirahsiakan) kan?"
"a'ah, macam mane awak ble tau sy?"
" sbenanye sy same kelas faoundation english dgn awak"
"gurrp" (Amad kelihatan gugup disitu)
" Zuraifah Anuar. Kenal?"
"Guuurppp"(Sekali lg Amad gugup)
tapi, conversatioon not end there... sememangnye sy budak nakal. Makenye we changing our phone number (mase tu sy x tau Amad sudah berpunye, jangan marah ye). Hari2 sms...tapi Amad ni mmgla budak bek, sms pun ayatnye skema je...tapi layan jela, sbb. suke..ahakksz. (Suke kawan je tau)
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Selepas beerkawan dgn Amad...die salu tolong sy, die tolong amek sy kat depan UTP bile sy smp dr Melake kol 3-4 pagi. Sem 1 dulu, kazen sy yg salu amek. tp sy kne jalan la, sbb kazen sy nek motor. Thanks Adin!! ( the story behind us, will remain benith my heart & soul till I die) fuyyoo.. x mau igt kisah tu dulu...(next post baru cite).
Kawan n kawan n kawan..makin lame makin rapat. Jadi, sy iktiraf Amad ni bestfriend saye...(Sbenanye mase tu dah suke kat Amad~~) Nak di jadikann cerite, saye dpt tau yg Amad ni dah de GF...(Makenye, sy mengurangkanla kadar keakraban sy dgn Amad ni sbb ade org dah sound sy) lagi menyedihkan bile org tuduh saye menjadi punca keretakkan rumah tangga Amad n GF die tu. (Saye x besalah...sbb sy mmg anggap die as kawan baek je T_T).. Lame2, hubungan kami cam renggang, x baek sgt dah. sy tuka phone no.. No sy tu sy bg my mom gne. Huhu, hidup pun aman semula, teruskan idop spt biasa.
______________________Malaysian studes??Cinta??___________________
Kadang2 btolkan kate org2 tuakan? Kalo nak benci org, berpade2, jgn benci dalam2 nnt jatuh hati... sy pandang remeh je mende tu.
Venue: Village 5 Cafe
1st Meeting
"Shark, "Tuutt" ni mane? Die dtg x miting?"
"Odw"
sy ni palingla baran kalo org x punctual ni, pastu "tuuuuutt" pun sampai...menyirap je darah ni. well, weol kne wat projek pasal traditional games/art... Sinca ayah saye penah wat thesis pasal Kumpulan kompang Al-Ezhar, so keputusan di capai tok menyambung je keje ayah saye tu. lets go guys to Melaka. Everything was planned and successfully excuted.
Venue: My Home Sweet Home
Project execution Stage
As usualla ayah sy mmg nampak cam STONE... generation gap. Membe2 sy yg boys ni pun x retila nak borak2 dgn ayah sy (dierang ni sume igt ayah sy x suke dierang dtg umah tu).
Venue: Food Court, JJ Melaka
End of Execution Stage
Well, lepas abes sume keje, make groupmet len pun balekla. yang tinggal, sy, rumet sy, Kiak, tuuut, shark... weol lepak kat JJ..hausnye, masing2 belila air. Nak tau x... sy share air dgn Tuut.. unpredictable...
"Tuut, nak tanye ble?"
"Tanye ape?"
"Nape eik, tuut isap rokok?"
"....grrr"
"x nak benti smoking?"
huhu, sepatutnye sy ni tau tu soklan yg sensitip tok sorang lelaki jawab. tapi, sbb nak tau juge..belasah je tanye. Tapi...that session really meant something...
______________________balek bercuti sem__________________________
______________________end of cuti sem____________________________
"ifa, tuut tgh round2 kat Midvalley ni"
"oooo, dgn sape?"
"membe2, nak pape?"
"aik..len macam plak rase hati ni, nape plak tetibe die tanye?"
"tak kesahla Tuuut, pape jela ole2 pun bole"
"ookes"
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"ifa, "tuuut" ade nak bg sumting"
"aiseyy, igtkan men2 je...huhu"
" erm, ts ifa g JJ ipow, nak beli sarung bantal, tp promoter tu slh bg, bolster nye sarung"
"eih..sy ade bolster, tp x de sarung lagi"
" camtu ifa bg tutt jela"
makenye, sy pun melangkah ke cafe V5 tu. tuut tunggu kat public phone yg kat Semarang block tu. Sambila berjalan tu, sy berpikir, erm macam terancang je...len macam je perasaan ni.
"nah, tak tau nak beli ape"
"eihh..thanks, mane awak tau sy ske ijau?"
"ske ijau jugak? sy ske ijau"
"samela minat kite"
dalam mengenali tutt, terlalu byk persamaan kami....
Dalam pade mase sy kapel dgn Tutt, rupenye2 ade hati yg terase... die mungkin menjadi punca sy n tuttt goyah. tapi sy x salahkan die. he fight for his love..instead of tutt...
Actually before kapel dgn tutt, adela membe2 sy yg bgtau, Amad (budak yg sy cite kat atas td tu..yg dah de GF tu...) sbenanye menaruh hati pade saye, tapi sy tak pecayela selagi x dgr dgn telinga saye sendri. Pastu sy pun ajakla Amad Lunch dgn saye.
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"Cad, ifa nak ajak Amad lunch ni. Nak tanye die sendri, btol x die syg ifa"
"gla ifa. tanye die btol2"
"tapi Cad, kalo die tak ngaku, mmg lepas ni ifa xkan maafkan die lagi kalo die dtg cari ifa"
Venue: USM Cafe
Decision day..
"Amad, dgr cite awak ade suke some1 kat UTP ni, btolke?"
"suke je x pekan?"
"sape?"
"suke je x pekan?"
"xnak bgtau ifa?"
"suke je x pekan?"
arrrr..saketnye ati bile dgr tu je jawapan die ulang. so sy pun nekadla. mmg smp ctu jela. i need to forget him and go on with tuut..dont hope for something that u r not sure. I'm trying hard to forget him and able to do it when i'm with tutt.. Tutt love is something yg special... ermm tapi...
panjang lagi ni... belum nampak kesinambungan lagu yg sy embedded tu dgn story yg sy nak cite.....will cut it short on next post. fiuh...nite n wslm.
Desa Senadin,
Kuala Baram,
Miri.
23:39
Harini, sy rs sgt tertekan, depress...sy tak tau dah nakk describe saket sy ni pade HR and SKO MC ni. bukan sume penyakit mudah untuk diexplain. Kalo sy ni patah kaki ke, kanser ke, ia sesuatu yg dpt dilihat, boleh dipastikan dgn test2 dr doctor... Masalah sy ..saket sy ni, within my own system, how should I tell them? Buntu... Maybe kalo anak2 dierang kne saket macam sy ni baru dierang sedar kot how urgent n how important for me to be close with my family and doctor. Untuk yg x de anak, of course dierang x paham... tapi x bek doakan org caamtukan..Astaghfirullahal'azim.
Balek opis, membersihkan diri n perot mule rase lapa..Asalnye dah SMS abg syanad nak ajak dinner, tp rasenye die bz..so pandai2la nak idop. Susahkan, kawan x sume yg paham kite, x sume yg sanggup sacrifice macam family sendri. Mungkin kalo kite, kite anggap kawan mcam adek bradek sendri, sanggup ssh payah tok kawan kite tu..kite risaukan kesihatan die, kite x le tgok kawan kite sedih..tapi x semestinye kawan yg kite ade skang ni akan same macam kite.. Itu mmg sudah lumrah berkawan... x kesahla.. I'm tired of thinking about it.
________________________xxxx_______________xxxx______________________
so, lepak2 lepas maghrib, on PC..sbenanye nak cari Poco-poco yg new version yg kumpulan Butterfly nyanyi tu..huhu, pastu tetibe teringat plak lagu yg wat video engagement tu.. so apelagi.. me"Utube" la..hehhe.. Finally i got it!! 1st tgok video clip lagu ni..so touchy..
Now, i knew y my cousin put this song as background video tu. it is my life story. wwaaa.. mengalir air mate. Tak perlu dah sy nak pikir pasal kawan.. sbb, setahu sy, sy ade sorang kawan sejati. sy kenal die since 1st sem sy kat UTP. Kuasa Allah, die di takdirkan lewat register ke UTP sbb ade program dgn secondary skool die. so he was in my Foundation English Class wif me.
Al maklumla, kelas english byk kne wat presentation. kne becakap depan kelas... bg speech..macam2 lagila.. so one night ni, mase nak tunggu class penoh (budget dtg awal ni), kebetulan sy, rumet sy and few guys ade dlm kelas tu. Kawan sy tu pun ade dalam kelas tu, ntah napela sy ni macam ade drive nak bukak mulut...maybe sbb tgok kawan sy tu innocent kot (budget muke budak bek)..
" Awak, firdhauskan?"
" ...erm.."
"Awak skolah mane dulu eik?"
"Maktab tentera"
"ooo..RMC"
hehe..tetibe rase diri ni cam nakal... the conversation just ended there... sy pun x tau nape. maybe sbb mase tu lecturer tu dah sampai. Class punn berjalan as usual but.... something waiting for me at end of the class..
______________________________xxxxx_________________________________
aik...apela kawan sy tu wat dok kat tangge luar kelas ni, kelas dah abes, tapi x reti2 nak balek... apela yg ditunggunye... yg x tahan tu, mamat sorang lagi yg salu teman die tu. Tengok org cam tak puas ati je, macam nak cari gado (tp sbenanye mmg muke die camtu)..
Since hari sy mule tego kawan sy tu... sy notice yg setiap kali abes kelas, die akan dok kat tangge tu tunggu sy kluar kelas, lepas sy kuar kelas, die tunggu kat motor die plak, tunggu sy jalan lepas parking area..pastu barula die nak gerak balek. Erm, something wrong sy rase dgn kawan sy ni (tapi mase ni belom jadi kawan lagila)... untok memudahkan penceritaan..kite namekan kawan sy ni "Amad".
jadi, kehidupan as 1st year student, berlalu spt biasa. Sy ni mcam dpt kekuatan tok dtg kelas english tu. nak bg speech or bercakap kat depan pun rase tenang sbb sy dpt rskan sokongan dr Amad ni. pandangan mate die, senyuman die yg manis tu (mulut die mmg kiut rr, siyes rase nak amek gunting , gunting..hahha) beri sy kekuatan, ketenangan..redup mate, fiuuuuh..cair.. I'm melting~~~ tapi yg peliknye tapi teramatla benar, sy x penah becakap dgn Amad ni semenjak last conversation tu, hanye mate bertemu mate lantas senyum menguntum dan badan terus mengorak langkah berlalu pergi.
test..test..test...exam..exam lagi...brape byk paper final pun x surela sem tu. 1st sem mmg ilang arah tujuan belaje. x le nak balance life lagi. Cuak kot sbb ramai budak2 genious...sy ni bese2 je.. Down~~ abes exam, balek umah.. Chatting!! mirc? sound familiar? sbenanye ade org ajak join, kalo x silap amar, hopefully btolla name mamat ni. so joinla chatting. bersembunyi di nickname ape eik.. "oshienz" or "casper" x igtla, lost memory dah..hehhe..
___________________mirc????mirc???mirc??________________________________
"xxxx(name dirahsiakan), nak tanye sket, "beck7 ni sape eik?"
"eih die dak batch kite... XXXX(name dirahsiakan)"
"ooo budak yg same kelas foundation dgn sy"
Makenye, cuti sem tu menjadi permulaan sy dan Amad menjadi rakan siber... chitchat menjadi nadi kami berhubung. at our last , before end chatting malam tu:
" Awak tau ke sape sy?"
" Erm, sy kenal awk ke?"
" rasenye kenal kot"
"owh, yeke?"
" Awak XXXX(name dirahsiakan) kan?"
"a'ah, macam mane awak ble tau sy?"
" sbenanye sy same kelas faoundation english dgn awak"
"gurrp" (Amad kelihatan gugup disitu)
" Zuraifah Anuar. Kenal?"
"Guuurppp"(Sekali lg Amad gugup)
tapi, conversatioon not end there... sememangnye sy budak nakal. Makenye we changing our phone number (mase tu sy x tau Amad sudah berpunye, jangan marah ye). Hari2 sms...tapi Amad ni mmgla budak bek, sms pun ayatnye skema je...tapi layan jela, sbb. suke..ahakksz. (Suke kawan je tau)
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Selepas beerkawan dgn Amad...die salu tolong sy, die tolong amek sy kat depan UTP bile sy smp dr Melake kol 3-4 pagi. Sem 1 dulu, kazen sy yg salu amek. tp sy kne jalan la, sbb kazen sy nek motor. Thanks Adin!! ( the story behind us, will remain benith my heart & soul till I die) fuyyoo.. x mau igt kisah tu dulu...(next post baru cite).
Kawan n kawan n kawan..makin lame makin rapat. Jadi, sy iktiraf Amad ni bestfriend saye...(Sbenanye mase tu dah suke kat Amad~~) Nak di jadikann cerite, saye dpt tau yg Amad ni dah de GF...(Makenye, sy mengurangkanla kadar keakraban sy dgn Amad ni sbb ade org dah sound sy) lagi menyedihkan bile org tuduh saye menjadi punca keretakkan rumah tangga Amad n GF die tu. (Saye x besalah...sbb sy mmg anggap die as kawan baek je T_T).. Lame2, hubungan kami cam renggang, x baek sgt dah. sy tuka phone no.. No sy tu sy bg my mom gne. Huhu, hidup pun aman semula, teruskan idop spt biasa.
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Kadang2 btolkan kate org2 tuakan? Kalo nak benci org, berpade2, jgn benci dalam2 nnt jatuh hati... sy pandang remeh je mende tu.
Venue: Village 5 Cafe
1st Meeting
"Shark, "Tuutt" ni mane? Die dtg x miting?"
"Odw"
sy ni palingla baran kalo org x punctual ni, pastu "tuuuuutt" pun sampai...menyirap je darah ni. well, weol kne wat projek pasal traditional games/art... Sinca ayah saye penah wat thesis pasal Kumpulan kompang Al-Ezhar, so keputusan di capai tok menyambung je keje ayah saye tu. lets go guys to Melaka. Everything was planned and successfully excuted.
Venue: My Home Sweet Home
Project execution Stage
As usualla ayah sy mmg nampak cam STONE... generation gap. Membe2 sy yg boys ni pun x retila nak borak2 dgn ayah sy (dierang ni sume igt ayah sy x suke dierang dtg umah tu).
"ifa, nak tanye sket"Somehow, sejak conversation tu, sy rase cam ade connection je dgn tutt ni, walopun die heavy smoker( mmg sy x le survive dgn smoker)... tapi masih terlalu awal tok sy kate pape.
"yup, ape die "TuuuuT" ?(name dirahsiakan)"
"ayah..ayah ifa tu x ske kiterang dtgke?"
"uish, xdela...ayah mmg camtula, dgn anak2 pun camtu, jgn amek ati k"
"ooo, igtkan die tak ske"
Venue: Food Court, JJ Melaka
End of Execution Stage
Well, lepas abes sume keje, make groupmet len pun balekla. yang tinggal, sy, rumet sy, Kiak, tuuut, shark... weol lepak kat JJ..hausnye, masing2 belila air. Nak tau x... sy share air dgn Tuut.. unpredictable...
"Tuut, nak tanye ble?"
"Tanye ape?"
"Nape eik, tuut isap rokok?"
"....grrr"
"x nak benti smoking?"
huhu, sepatutnye sy ni tau tu soklan yg sensitip tok sorang lelaki jawab. tapi, sbb nak tau juge..belasah je tanye. Tapi...that session really meant something...
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"ifa, tuut tgh round2 kat Midvalley ni"
"oooo, dgn sape?"
"membe2, nak pape?"
"aik..len macam plak rase hati ni, nape plak tetibe die tanye?"
"tak kesahla Tuuut, pape jela ole2 pun bole"
"ookes"
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"ifa, "tuuut" ade nak bg sumting"
"aiseyy, igtkan men2 je...huhu"
" erm, ts ifa g JJ ipow, nak beli sarung bantal, tp promoter tu slh bg, bolster nye sarung"
"eih..sy ade bolster, tp x de sarung lagi"
" camtu ifa bg tutt jela"
makenye, sy pun melangkah ke cafe V5 tu. tuut tunggu kat public phone yg kat Semarang block tu. Sambila berjalan tu, sy berpikir, erm macam terancang je...len macam je perasaan ni.
"nah, tak tau nak beli ape"
"eihh..thanks, mane awak tau sy ske ijau?"
"ske ijau jugak? sy ske ijau"
"samela minat kite"
dalam mengenali tutt, terlalu byk persamaan kami....
- die suke linkin...sy pun ( die bg sy CD ade sume lagu linkin complete with lyric winamp)
- die suke ijau..sy pun... die bg sy lilin epal kale ijau... sumenye 2 lilin ijau.
- die same perangai mcm sy??rasenyela..
- die suke je layan sy betekak dgn die...
- die suke je merapek2..sy pun
- byk lagila....
Dalam pade mase sy kapel dgn Tutt, rupenye2 ade hati yg terase... die mungkin menjadi punca sy n tuttt goyah. tapi sy x salahkan die. he fight for his love..instead of tutt...
Actually before kapel dgn tutt, adela membe2 sy yg bgtau, Amad (budak yg sy cite kat atas td tu..yg dah de GF tu...) sbenanye menaruh hati pade saye, tapi sy tak pecayela selagi x dgr dgn telinga saye sendri. Pastu sy pun ajakla Amad Lunch dgn saye.
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"Cad, ifa nak ajak Amad lunch ni. Nak tanye die sendri, btol x die syg ifa"
"gla ifa. tanye die btol2"
"tapi Cad, kalo die tak ngaku, mmg lepas ni ifa xkan maafkan die lagi kalo die dtg cari ifa"
Venue: USM Cafe
Decision day..
"Amad, dgr cite awak ade suke some1 kat UTP ni, btolke?"
"suke je x pekan?"
"sape?"
"suke je x pekan?"
"xnak bgtau ifa?"
"suke je x pekan?"
arrrr..saketnye ati bile dgr tu je jawapan die ulang. so sy pun nekadla. mmg smp ctu jela. i need to forget him and go on with tuut..dont hope for something that u r not sure. I'm trying hard to forget him and able to do it when i'm with tutt.. Tutt love is something yg special... ermm tapi...
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panjang lagi ni... belum nampak kesinambungan lagu yg sy embedded tu dgn story yg sy nak cite.....will cut it short on next post. fiuh...nite n wslm.
Desa Senadin,
Kuala Baram,
Miri.
23:39
My Fevret Ringtone...
Kuroneko no tango...
Kimi wa kawaii, Boku no kuroneko Akai ribonga, Yoku ni au yo Dakedo tokidoki, tsume wo dashite Boku no kokoro wo nayamaseru Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango Bokuno koibito wa kuroi neko Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango Neko no me no you ni, kimagureyo Lalalalalala lala nyaao Suteki na kimi ga, machi wo arukeba Warui doraneko, koe wo kakeru Oishii esa ni, ikaretchatte Atode naitemo, shiranai yo Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango Bokuno koibito wa kuroi neko Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango Neko no me no you ni, kimagureyo Lalalalalala lala nyaao Yoru no akari ga, minna kietemo Kimi no hitomi wa, gin no hoshi yo Kirakira hikaru, kuroneko no me Yoru wa itsumo, Kimi no mono sa Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango Bokuno koibito wa kuroi neko Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango Neko no me no you ni, kimagureyo Lalalalalala lala Kirakira hikaru, kuroneko no me Yoru wa itsumo, Kimi no mono sa Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango Bokuno koibito wa kuroi neko Dakedo anmari itazura suruto Aji no himono wa (nyaao) Oazukeda yo Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
Tapi...bile di alih bahse~~hihu...
My BLACK kitten~~
You are my adorable black kitten
Red ribbons look so good on you
But sometimes, she'd stick out the nails
To annoy my heart
A black cat Tango, Tango, Tango
My love is a black cat
You're so unpredictable like cats' eyes
Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
If a gorgeous you walk around the town
Bad stray cats would give you a holler
Mesmerized by yummy bait
I wouldn't help you if you'd have to cry later
A black cat Tango, Tango, Tango
My love is a black cat
You're so unpredictable like cats' eyes
Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
Though all the lights are gone at night
Your pupils brighten like silver stars
Shimmering shining black cat's eyes
Nights are always yours
A black cat Tango, Tango, Tango
My love is a black cat
You're so unpredictable like cats' eyes
Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
Shimmering shining black cat's eyes
Nights are always yours
A black cat Tango, Tango, Tango
My love is a black cat
You're so unpredictable like cats' eyes
But if you play around too much,
I won't give you dried herring
Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
Layan jela~~kawaiiii
Tapi...bile di alih bahse~~hihu...
My BLACK kitten~~
You are my adorable black kitten
Red ribbons look so good on you
But sometimes, she'd stick out the nails
To annoy my heart
A black cat Tango, Tango, Tango
My love is a black cat
You're so unpredictable like cats' eyes
Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
If a gorgeous you walk around the town
Bad stray cats would give you a holler
Mesmerized by yummy bait
I wouldn't help you if you'd have to cry later
A black cat Tango, Tango, Tango
My love is a black cat
You're so unpredictable like cats' eyes
Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
Though all the lights are gone at night
Your pupils brighten like silver stars
Shimmering shining black cat's eyes
Nights are always yours
A black cat Tango, Tango, Tango
My love is a black cat
You're so unpredictable like cats' eyes
Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
Shimmering shining black cat's eyes
Nights are always yours
A black cat Tango, Tango, Tango
My love is a black cat
You're so unpredictable like cats' eyes
But if you play around too much,
I won't give you dried herring
Lalalalalala lala nyaaao!
Layan jela~~kawaiiii
Update on My Wedding Preparation
Assalamualaaikum....
First and foremost, sorryla lame x update blog ni. Buzy tron nek belon. Baru je balek dr follow-up dgn doctor.huhu..."aku hilang arah tujuku"
tapi takpe, buat mase ni, sy nak lupekan pasal saket tu. Fokus skang mesti sy tumpukan tok hari bersejarah sy. tak lame dah. 44 hari je lagi. dah mule berdebar2 hati ni. Alhamdulillah bole dikatekan almost 90% dah siap.
Jom kite go tru checklist same2:
First and foremost, sorryla lame x update blog ni. Buzy tron nek belon. Baru je balek dr follow-up dgn doctor.huhu..."aku hilang arah tujuku"
tapi takpe, buat mase ni, sy nak lupekan pasal saket tu. Fokus skang mesti sy tumpukan tok hari bersejarah sy. tak lame dah. 44 hari je lagi. dah mule berdebar2 hati ni. Alhamdulillah bole dikatekan almost 90% dah siap.
Jom kite go tru checklist same2:
- permohonan nikah - yang ni tgh tunggu Jabatan Agama Islam Perak bg surat pengesahan for pengantin lelaki, then sy gagal menemui birth cert; makenye knela menapak ke jabatan pendaftaran negeri...hehe , after complete sume barula bole submit pd JAIM.
- Package Andaman - Deposit tlh dibayar. Baju and persalinan dah di pilih.Pelamin pun dah dapat yg sy suke.Gembiranye, tapi mcam nak tuka persalinan... Then, sy dapat complimentary lulur & spa with the package..bile eik nak wat? Balek pun dah 17 Dec, 18 Dec kne jumpe doctor lagi..erm..sempatke?
- Package fotographer - Deposit pun dah bayar, tgh pikir nak wat outdoor katne..any idea friends? Eye on Malaysia kan dah ade kat Melaka..Nice!! Thanks abg sponsor this session~~ Never tot i'll get this. Thank you 2x!! Love You.
- Canopy - Ayah dah bayar...Thanks ayah!! Love u too. 6 khemah+1 khemah pengantin with theme yg sy suke..
- Food & Beverage - erm...total guest dah finalized, about 2500-3000 pax. Menu almost finalized...cume ayam x sure nak wat ape. Either normal menu (ayam goreng berempah or ayam golek)...lauk pengantin? Sape lagi kalo bukan kakak2 sedare sy yg kat Kayel tule yg akan sy kerah.
- Gift - Alhamdulillah. Sambil balek followup doctor aritu sempat sy g Nilai with abg, Almost everything we sempat beli. Cuma a few yg x de. Tuala for org2 dapur, decoration things sikit lagi. Tp mesti kne menapak balek ke Nilai nampak gayenye. Guest dah bertambah...hehe. Major giftnye sy beli online~~Thank to AnisBakery...
- Hantaran - Alhamdulillah, interm of barang2, almost done cume yg special tu abg kate die nak wat suprise...apela yg abg nak beli aggaknye? Tak saba pule nak tunggu. i also have suprise for ula sayang~~ Decoration? Alhamdulillah, Kak Ling on progress buatkan. Can't wait. erm, dulang hantaran...ni yg nak kne kompemkan. alas satin beli kat Nilai..murah. alas yg cantek tu, sy pinjam je...Jimat~~
- Baju Nikah - Aritu balek sempat gak singgah KAS Tailor tok fitting baju. Alhamdulillah, walopun on steroid skang ni, tapi badan x la nek mendadak sangat. risau btol mase nak try, takot x muat tapi Kak Yati kate ok lagi, still safe if bdn nek sket lagi. Baju tu simple je. Baju melayu abg pun dah siap. Beli songkok and stripe skali. Naseb bek, kakak sy keje kat KAS Tailor, senang nak berurusan. Kak Yati tu pun baek sgt orangnye. Very professional.
- Baju Pengapit & Family - Done with theme yang my mom nak. Fiuuuuh.
- Set Bilik Tidur Pengantin - Honestly inila item yg paling major skali. Huhu, actually my room baru je beli set perabot tapi my mom offer gne bilek die. so nak knela pindah set bilek tido sy tu ke bilek my parent. jadi, since sy mmg dah lame berniat nak wat make over for my parent room tu, sy katela kat my mom yang sy nak beli set bilek yang baru and after wedding all the things will belong to them. Ayah, mak: "Ipah hadiahkan sumenye tok kalian berdua. Terima kasih kerana susah payah mak ayah besarkan ipah sampai jadi org yg berguna. Seinfiniti terima kasih juga kerana sentiase berada disamping ipah memberi support tok ipah teruskan hidup. Terimala pemberian yg tak seberape tu. Harap mak ayah akan suke sume yg ipah hadiahkan. I LOVE U so muuuccch!!" Since lampu bilek tdo tu pun cam dah x btol n pecah, sy ganti gak lampu.. Tambah karpet juge..Really Happy when I saw my mom n dad bile dierang dapat hadiah tu...Alhamdulillah. ..Tetibe rase sebak plak..aiseyy..missing them... T_T
- Invitation Card - On going.....
Ape lagi item yang termiss-out ni..huhu...okla ckop dulu sampai cni.penat dah otak ni pikir. ooo..ade satu lagi...Honey moon? hehhe.. Just got suprise from my Abang..die terexcited mase anta sy kat epot aritu...hehhe..Mengalir air mate, terharu.. hadiah from my future in law...waaa...tp destinasi nye di rahsiakan sehingga mase wedding...takpe2..sy pun x nak tau dulu..x suprisela kalo dah tau awal2.. thanks ibu, ayah. Speechless gile mase tu. Pelik mat saleh yg ade dlm Mc D mase. tetibe tgok sy ni nangis...hohho...
alamak..lapa plak prot ni..nak masak nasila..nak makan!! lapa.. okla, have to put a dot here. Sayonara!
Wslm~~
