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Saat pertama sy dengar lagu ni, mase dpt engagement video sy. Kate kazen, background music tu x launch lg, still dlm promo. Wow..padanla x penah dgr pun. Tapi kesinambungan lirik, irama music dan video tu, sgt menyentuh jiwa sy ni. terus jatuh hati dgn lagu ni...

Harini, sy rs sgt tertekan, depress...sy tak tau dah nakk describe saket sy ni pade HR and SKO MC ni. bukan sume penyakit mudah untuk diexplain. Kalo sy ni patah kaki ke, kanser ke, ia sesuatu yg dpt dilihat, boleh dipastikan dgn test2 dr doctor... Masalah sy ..saket sy ni, within my own system, how should I tell them? Buntu... Maybe kalo anak2 dierang kne saket macam sy ni baru dierang sedar kot how urgent n how important for me to be close with my family and doctor. Untuk yg x de anak, of course dierang x paham... tapi x bek doakan org caamtukan..Astaghfirullahal'azim.

Balek opis, membersihkan diri n perot mule rase lapa..Asalnye dah SMS abg syanad nak ajak dinner, tp rasenye die bz..so pandai2la nak idop. Susahkan, kawan x sume yg paham kite, x sume yg sanggup sacrifice macam family sendri. Mungkin kalo kite, kite anggap kawan mcam adek bradek sendri, sanggup ssh payah tok kawan kite tu..kite risaukan kesihatan die, kite x le
tgok kawan kite sedih..tapi x semestinye kawan yg kite ade skang ni akan same macam kite.. Itu mmg sudah lumrah berkawan... x kesahla.. I'm tired of thinking about it.


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so, lepak2 lepas maghrib, on PC..sbenanye nak cari Poco-poco yg new version yg kumpulan Butterfly nyanyi tu..huhu, pastu tetibe teringat plak lagu yg wat video engagement tu.. so apelagi.. me"Utube" la..hehhe.. Finally i got it!! 1st tgok video clip lagu ni..so touchy..

Now, i knew y my cousin put this song as background video tu. it is my life story. wwaaa.. mengalir air mate. Tak perlu dah sy nak pikir pasal kawan.. sbb, setahu sy, sy ade sorang kawan sejati. sy kenal die since 1st sem sy kat UTP. Kuasa Allah, die di takdirkan lewat register ke UTP sbb ade program dgn secondary skool die. so he was in my Foundation English Class wif me.

Al maklumla, kelas english byk kne wat presentation. kne becakap depan kelas... bg speech..macam2 lagila.. so one night ni, mase nak tunggu class penoh (budget dtg awal ni), kebetulan sy, rumet sy and few guys ade dlm kelas tu. Kawan sy tu pun ade dalam kelas tu, ntah napela sy ni macam ade drive nak bukak mulut...maybe sbb tgok kawan sy tu innocent kot (budget muke budak bek)..

" Awak, firdhauskan?"
" ...erm.."
"Awak skolah mane dulu eik?"
"Maktab tentera"
"ooo..RMC"


hehe..tetibe rase diri ni cam nakal... the conversation just ended there... sy pun x tau nape. maybe sbb mase tu lecturer tu dah sampai. Class punn berjalan as usual but.... something waiting for me at end of the class..

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aik...apela kawan sy tu wat dok kat tangge luar kelas ni, kelas dah abes, tapi x reti2 nak balek... apela yg ditunggunye... yg x tahan tu, mamat sorang lagi yg salu teman die tu. Tengok org cam tak puas ati je, macam nak cari gado (tp sbenanye mmg muke die camtu)..

Since hari sy mule tego kawan sy tu... sy notice yg setiap kali abes kelas, die akan dok kat tangge tu tunggu sy kluar kelas, lepas sy kuar kelas, die tunggu kat motor die plak, tunggu sy jalan lepas parking area..pastu barula die nak gerak balek. Erm, something wrong sy rase dgn kawan sy ni (tapi mase ni belom jadi kawan lagila)... untok memudahkan penceritaan..kite namekan kawan sy ni "Amad".

jadi, kehidupan as 1st year student, berlalu spt biasa. Sy ni mcam dpt kekuatan tok dtg kelas english tu. nak bg speech or bercakap kat depan pun rase tenang sbb sy dpt rskan sokongan dr Amad ni. pandangan mate die, senyuman die yg manis tu (mulut die mmg kiut rr, siyes rase nak amek gunting , gunting..hahha) beri sy kekuatan, ketenangan..redup mate, fiuuuuh..cair.. I'm melting~~~ tapi yg peliknye tapi teramatla benar, sy x penah becakap dgn Amad ni semenjak last conversation tu, hanye mate bertemu mate lantas senyum menguntum dan badan terus mengorak langkah berlalu pergi.

test..test..test...exam..exam lagi...brape byk paper final pun x surela sem tu. 1st sem mmg ilang arah tujuan belaje. x le nak balance life lagi. Cuak kot sbb ramai budak2 genious...sy ni bese2 je.. Down~~ abes exam, balek umah.. Chatting!! mirc? sound familiar? sbenanye ade org ajak join, kalo x silap amar, hopefully btolla name mamat ni. so joinla chatting. bersembunyi di nickname ape eik.. "oshienz" or "casper" x igtla, lost memory dah..hehhe..


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"xxxx(name dirahsiakan), nak tanye sket, "beck7 ni sape eik?"
"eih die dak batch kite... XXXX(name dirahsiakan)"
"ooo budak yg same kelas foundation dgn sy"


Makenye, cuti sem tu menjadi permulaan sy dan Amad menjadi rakan siber... chitchat menjadi nadi kami berhubung. at our last , before end chatting malam tu:

" Awak tau ke sape sy?"
" Erm, sy kenal awk ke?"
" rasenye kenal kot"
"owh, yeke?"
" Awak XXXX(name dirahsiakan) kan?"
"a'ah, macam mane awak ble tau sy?"
" sbenanye sy same kelas faoundation english dgn awak"
"gurrp" (Amad kelihatan gugup disitu)
" Zuraifah Anuar. Kenal?"
"Guuurppp"(Sekali lg Amad gugup)


tapi, conversatioon not end there... sememangnye sy budak nakal. Makenye we changing our phone number (mase tu sy x tau Amad sudah berpunye, jangan marah ye). Hari2 sms...tapi Amad ni mmgla budak bek, sms pun ayatnye skema je...tapi layan jela, sbb. suke..ahakksz. (Suke kawan je tau)

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Selepas beerkawan dgn Amad...die salu tolong sy, die tolong amek sy kat depan UTP bile sy smp dr Melake kol 3-4 pagi. Sem 1 dulu, kazen sy yg salu amek. tp sy kne jalan la, sbb kazen sy nek motor. Thanks Adin!! ( the story behind us, will remain benith my heart & soul till I die) fuyyoo.. x mau igt kisah tu dulu...(next post baru cite).

Kawan n kawan n kawan..makin lame makin rapat. Jadi, sy iktiraf Amad ni bestfriend saye...(Sbenanye mase tu dah suke kat Amad~~) Nak di jadikann cerite, saye dpt tau yg Amad ni dah de GF...(Makenye, sy mengurangkanla kadar keakraban sy dgn Amad ni sbb ade org dah sound sy) lagi menyedihkan bile org tuduh saye menjadi punca keretakkan rumah tangga Amad n GF die tu. (Saye x besalah...sbb sy mmg anggap die as kawan baek je T_T).. Lame2, hubungan kami cam renggang, x baek sgt dah. sy tuka phone no.. No sy tu sy bg my mom gne. Huhu, hidup pun aman semula, teruskan idop spt biasa.

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Kadang2 btolkan kate org2 tuakan? Kalo nak benci org, berpade2, jgn benci dalam2 nnt jatuh hati... sy pandang remeh je mende tu.

Venue: Village 5 Cafe
1st Meeting

"Shark, "Tuutt" ni mane? Die dtg x miting?"
"Odw"


sy ni palingla baran kalo org x punctual ni, pastu "tuuuuutt" pun sampai...menyirap je darah ni. well, weol kne wat projek pasal traditional games/art... Sinca ayah saye penah wat thesis pasal Kumpulan kompang Al-Ezhar, so keputusan di capai tok menyambung je keje ayah saye tu. lets go guys to Melaka. Everything was planned and successfully excuted.

Venue: My Home Sweet Home
Project execution Stage

As usualla ayah sy mmg nampak cam STONE... generation gap. Membe2 sy yg boys ni pun x retila nak borak2 dgn ayah sy (dierang ni sume igt ayah sy x suke dierang dtg umah tu).

"ifa, nak tanye sket"
"yup, ape die "TuuuuT" ?(name dirahsiakan)"
"ayah..ayah ifa tu x ske kiterang dtgke?"
"uish, xdela...ayah mmg camtula, dgn anak2 pun camtu, jgn amek ati k"
"ooo, igtkan die tak ske"
Somehow, sejak conversation tu, sy rase cam ade connection je dgn tutt ni, walopun die heavy smoker( mmg sy x le survive dgn smoker)... tapi masih terlalu awal tok sy kate pape.

Venue: Food Court, JJ Melaka
End of Execution Stage

Well, lepas abes sume keje, make groupmet len pun balekla. yang tinggal, sy, rumet sy, Kiak, tuuut, shark... weol lepak kat JJ..hausnye, masing2 belila air. Nak tau x... sy share air dgn Tuut.. unpredictable...

"Tuut, nak tanye ble?"
"Tanye ape?"
"Nape eik, tuut isap rokok?"
"....grrr"
"x nak benti smoking?"


huhu, sepatutnye sy ni tau tu soklan yg sensitip tok sorang lelaki jawab. tapi, sbb nak tau juge..belasah je tanye. Tapi...that session really meant something...

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"ifa, tuut tgh round2 kat Midvalley ni"
"oooo, dgn sape?"
"membe2, nak pape?"

"aik..len macam plak rase hati ni, nape plak tetibe die tanye?"
"tak kesahla Tuuut, pape jela ole2 pun bole"
"ookes"


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"ifa, "tuuut" ade nak bg sumting"
"aiseyy, igtkan men2 je...huhu"
" erm, ts ifa g JJ ipow, nak beli sarung bantal, tp promoter tu slh bg, bolster nye sarung"
"eih..sy ade bolster, tp x de sarung lagi"
" camtu ifa bg tutt jela"

makenye, sy pun melangkah ke cafe V5 tu. tuut tunggu kat public phone yg kat Semarang block tu. Sambila berjalan tu, sy berpikir, erm macam terancang je...len macam je perasaan ni.

"nah, tak tau nak beli ape"
"eihh..thanks, mane awak tau sy ske ijau?"
"ske ijau jugak? sy ske ijau"
"samela minat kite"

dalam mengenali tutt, terlalu byk persamaan kami....

  • die suke linkin...sy pun ( die bg sy CD ade sume lagu linkin complete with lyric winamp)
  • die suke ijau..sy pun... die bg sy lilin epal kale ijau... sumenye 2 lilin ijau.
  • die same perangai mcm sy??rasenyela..
  • die suke je layan sy betekak dgn die...
  • die suke je merapek2..sy pun
  • byk lagila....
pendek kate, punye ssh payah sy ni nk terime die, akhirnye sangkut!! hahha.. aneh, tapi ia adelah amat benar. Saya sayang die, even smp skang pun sy masih merindui saat sy berkawan dgn die. Cume sy x faham, kenape die tinggalkan sy.. (taknakla cite part yg sedeh tu)... Puas sy cr jalan nak bek balek dgn die, tp die tolak sy sepenuhnye.. so sudden and die x beri saye pluang tok berkate2.. Pasrah...

Dalam pade mase sy kapel dgn Tutt, rupenye2 ade hati yg terase... die mungkin menjadi punca sy n tuttt goyah. tapi sy x salahkan die. he fight for his love..instead of tutt...

Actually before kapel dgn tutt, adela membe2 sy yg bgtau, Amad (budak yg sy cite kat atas td tu..yg dah de GF tu...) sbenanye menaruh hati pade saye, tapi sy tak pecayela selagi x dgr dgn telinga saye sendri. Pastu sy pun ajakla Amad Lunch dgn saye.

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"Cad, ifa nak ajak Amad lunch ni. Nak tanye die sendri, btol x die syg ifa"
"gla ifa. tanye die btol2"
"tapi Cad, kalo die tak ngaku, mmg lepas ni ifa xkan maafkan die lagi kalo die dtg cari ifa"


Venue: USM Cafe
Decision day..

"Amad, dgr cite awak ade suke some1 kat UTP ni, btolke?"
"suke je x pekan?"
"sape?"
"suke je x pekan?"
"xnak bgtau ifa?"
"suke je x pekan?"


arrrr..saketnye ati bile dgr tu je jawapan die ulang. so sy pun nekadla. mmg smp ctu jela. i need to forget him and go on with tuut..dont hope for something that u r not sure. I'm trying hard to forget him and able to do it when i'm with tutt.. Tutt love is something yg special... ermm tapi...

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panjang lagi ni... belum nampak kesinambungan lagu yg sy embedded tu dgn story yg sy nak cite.....will cut it short on next post. fiuh...nite n wslm.



Desa Senadin,
Kuala Baram,
Miri.

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2 comments:

kejora said...

ifah - laa yeke..mane laa i tau...nway, aku x penah lagi tag ko kan...silelaa bile rajin...tp nih cam byk plak ko tgh nak crite2 eik...

I have tagged you:- share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

oshienz said...

huhu..camne plak nak jawab tag ni..x penah kne tag selame ni...waaa..x lame lg nak kawen..hihu~~

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